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Jenna's Diary appears bi-weekly
May 5
I feel kind of low. I really don't
like drama but I thought my break-up with Rod would have a
little more oomph. It would have been nice to have a few tears
(him) some pleading (him) and a moving goodbye speech (me).
I guess I could have made a scene but then it might have drawn
attention to the whole gay thing.
Damn.
May 6
Oh, great now I don't even have
a career to fall back on. We had to pick a scene from a movie
and act it out. David set up a camera and for $14.99 we could
get a copy of our performance afterward. I chose a scene from
Perfect Storm which I thought would really show my range.
I wore my, or rather Diana's leather
pants, a loose flowing tops and high boots. I looked sooooo
good - really kind of roguish. I thought I was doing a terrific
job but when I finished and held my position for the applause
there was none!
David didn't really criticize me
or anything,he just said that he wasn't sure if I chose the
right piece. It was the reaction of the rest of the class
that really bothered me. Jean said "Oh, no you were good!"
in the way that people who think they did better than you
say things. Ali said I looked really nice which was good but
has nothing to do with my acting ability and Leon said he
didn't believe my performance !!!!!! This coming from a guy
who doesn't seem to believe in soap or deodorant!
How depressing.
May 8
Ahhhhhhh! Watching the videotape
I understand what the problem was! It was the lack of props.
Even though my mime skills are above
par there is only so much you can do with two chairs. It is
hard to show the character frantically pulling in the mast
and ducking to avoid getting hit by the whatever it is you
can get hit by, all the while displaying exertion, with calm
cool control ( not to mention a ton a water being dumped on
you) with only a folding chair and a stool. Also, if you didn't
know that I was on a boat you would wonder why I was yelling.
I did look really good though.
What a relief! I'd almost lost faith
in myself.
May 10
I think Diana should take some anger
management classes.
Last night she spazzed out over
the leather pants I borrowed. It seems I didn't put them back
exactly where I found them. "Jenna, I found my
brand new pants behind the toilet! What were you doing in
my room?"
I apologized, thought quickly and
told her I thought she'd told me to take the pants to the
cleaners. (Gee already this acting thing is paying off!) but
she said "Even if I did ask you to take the pants to
the cleaners, which I'm pretty sure didn't, that doesn't explain
why they were behind the toilet!" I explained that while
I was bundling up the stuff for the cleaners my mom called
to tell me that my Uncle Tom had died and of course I had
to rush over.
That worked because she felt bad
and now I can borrow something for the funeral.
May 12
Oh, Lord can you beat it? Rod called
to ask me what I thought of the play! ??????
Hello? What is wrong with him? In
a very clipped tone I said "Well you certainly seemed
to be enjoying the attention with Kris afterward."
Instead of stammering, stumbling
and apologizing he started gushing about Kris!
In a very nasty tone I told him
that I hoped that he and Kris would be very very happy together
and he actually had the nerve to act confused. After a few
moments he said "Jenna is this about New Year's Eve?
Hon, I told you then that I had feelings for Kris."
I pointed out to him that what he
actually said was "I am so confused." Which means
something totally different and if he didn't believe me I
had two girlfriends who would swear in a court of law to it.
He said he was sincerely sorry to
have created the confusion and that he really wanted us to
remain friends. I said "Ha! With friends like you I need
a pet!" and hung up. I'm not really sure what that means
but it seemed perfect at the time.
The only thing worse than getting
dumped is getting dumped by someone who didn't know they were
involved with you.
May 16
Now that I'm not spending every
night with Rod I don't know what to do with myself.
I haven't kept up with all my favourite
shows and can't start watching them now because it is too
close the the season finales and might spoil things when I
watch the reruns.
I tried to get hooked on new shows
but that is far too stressful. They walk around too much on
The West Wing, I can't stand Tyne Daly's face in Judging Amy
and ER is giving too much screen time to Abby. Give me a break
SHE could catch someone like Dr. John Carter? Rich, rich,
rich Dr. John Carter? And even if you suspend disbelief and
buy that she could hook him, she puts her insane family ahead
of him?
If my brother was careening around
the cemetery peeing on headstones while I was attending Dr.
John Carter's grandmother's burial service I would not only
refuse to tend to him I'd pretend I didn't know who he was
and call security.
Maybe I should become a nurse.
I got next week's TV Guide and have
written out a list of possible shows to watch. I've narrowed
it down to thirty and now have to write down the pros and
cons.
I've got some tough decisions to
make.
May 18
Oh, God. I'm bored.
It's really weird being single again.
I'm not the kind of gal who needs a guy to make her feel whole
it's not that at all, but I really like being in a relationship.
OK maybe Rod and I didn't have an ideal relationship. We never
went anywhere together, we were never alone, we didn't have
any physical contact and he was in love with another guy but
it was nice to be able to say "My boyfriend Rod."
I was thinking of forming a crush
on someone just to get myself out of the doldrums. I used
to do that in high school to make it through Science, English
and gym. It really cut down on the detentions I got for sleeping
during class.
Maybe if next week's programming
doesn't turn out that's what I'll do.
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