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July
3rd
SIMON
CALLED ME! I am so happy! It just shows you what patience and faith
can do.
I was
feeling a little blue because I just realized my birthday is only
three days away and I didn't want it to be like last year. To get
my mind off it I was working on the piece for my mom's wedding when
the phone rang.
He
told me that his show is opening tomorrow evening and that he would
love me to come see it.
WHOOO
HOOOOO!
Oh
my God!! That just proves everything right there. He wants to share
his opening night with me. What more proof do I need? I wanted us
to talk a little more but he was making hard-boiled eggs and didn't
want his pan to scorch.
I am
sooooooo happy. I feel so filled with energy and love, this is amazing.
On
Your Wedding
Another
year, a parade gone by
Trembling
leaves utter one last sigh
You've
laughed, you've loved, faded photos remind you
As
you realize your best years are behind you.
I think
that would be good for the programs or even the invitiations. As
far as ceremony I'm going to go more for prose.
July
4th
I could
spit nails, where does she get off?
I
left work early to get ready. I told my mom that I really needed
to work on their wedding thing and as an artist I have to work whenever
the muse is upon me. She asked why the muse couldn't hop on a bus
and come to work but she finally gave in.
I looked
really, really good after only five tries. The last time he gave
a performance it was in a an abandoned warehouse and I was overdressed
so this time I really dressed down. I kind of went for a goth look.
You just can't afford to look suburban at an event like this.
I thought
I had the wrong directions at first because the Ralph Thorogood
Center is a park and not a theatre but I saw the signs and realized
I was in the right place.
I had
no idea it was a kid's show. I was furious when one of the kids
pointed at me and started laughing. I made a point to "accidentally"
step on his toes when I squeezed pass the little bastard.
I worked
my way to a vacant seat and who do I see? IRENE! Irene and that
whole pack of bingo biddies from the writing group, I couldn't believe
it!
Irene
is still kind of ticked off at me for throwing her out a few weeks
ago but the only other vacant seats were stuck in the middle of
a bunch of kids so I sat next to her.
The
rest of the group barely acknowledged me (who cares.) She wasn't
unfriendly, just a little cool when I asked her what she was doing
there. She told me that Simon had invited them and they felt they
should support a member of their group.
That
really depressed me at first, but then I realized that Simon probably
felt obligated to ask them whereas he asked me because he
wanted to, not because he had to.
The
show was long, stupid and terrrible. I personally feel it was beneath
Simon's integrity but I know that occasionally an artist has to
compromise their beliefs in order to reach the higher goal.
After
the show I went "backstage" and Simon greeted me with
huge hug and kiss as I told him how much I loved the show and how
brilliant he was. I was just about to ask him to come up to the
cottage when he was called back to set up for the next show.
I felt
like I was floating on air when I walked away.
I met
up with Irene as I leaving and she offered me a lift home. She blabbed
on and on about the writing group and I was bored to tears until
she happened to mention that she'd sent her short story out to a
few publishers. She said the rest of the group encouraged her to
do it so she thought "why not?"
Why
not? Maybe because you have no talent? Maybe because you only got
interested in writing because I was?
I can't
believe this. I'M the one who came up with this whole writing thing.
I'M the one with the talent, and SHE is sending her work out to
publishers?
I can't
believe this.
July
5th
HAPPY
BIRTHDAY TO ME.
This
is going to be my year I can really feel it. I know I said that
last year and the year before but there are going to be big changes
around here.
This
is going to be the year I make it big. I will get published if it
kills me.
I was
up all last night working on a query
letter and I got a list of publishers out of the phone book. I took
the day off work to get my stuff together made photocopies, got
stamps and I'm going to send everything out today.
It
was soooo hard to choose what to send. I know I'm biased but it
is all so good. I reread part of my novel "Jayde"
and I almost cried, it is fabulous.
I'm
not going to include the section where I set it in the 17th century
even though it's great, because it doesn't make a lot of sense if
it's going to be a techno-thriller. Also, I don't really know anything
about the 17th century.
I don't
want to send too much because I don't want them stealing it.
My
later profound work
really shows my growth as a person and an artist. The observations
I make are pithy for sure. Other people will look at a box and just
see a box, while I'll look at a box and see something with four
sides, a top and a bottom.
I can
hardly wait to see Irene's face when I wave a publishing contract
in front of her face. Where does she get off? She is a rank amateur--
a dabbler while writing has been my passion for almost three months
now.
This
is going to be my year, I can really feel it!!!!!
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