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January
26
Already
the Feng Shui is working! I got rid of the broken clock radio
in my prosperity gua and found a quarter on the street! Wow,
it just shows you.
The
walls look like hell. I'm not sure what to do with them next.
I decided not to cover them in moss because I bought some
and the stuff stinks! Not only that, I only have an upright
vacuum so cleaning it would be a nightmare.
I
got a whole bunch of colour swatches and I was hoping Jeff
would be able to help me pick out something. I think it's
a choice we should make together because when his divorce
comes through I'm sure he'll be here all the time. (Maybe
even LIVING here. OOoooooo!) Unfortunately he had his nephew
with him and it was impossible to talk about anything.
I
really resent him bringing the kid over. We have so little
time together I have to compete with him to get Jeff's full
attention and the kid always wins because it's continually
leaking.
I'd taped off a off a square of my living room about 4 x 4
for it to play in but Jeff suggested we go to a park. How
boring is that?
Jeff
got into a conversation with one of the mothers there and
while I tried to look interested, I almost died from boredom.
The only interesting thing is at one point she referred to
me as Jeff's wife and HE DIDN'T CORRECT HER!
I
got tingles!!!!! That shows what is going on his mind I guess.
To reward him for that I pushed his nephew on the swing and
pretended it was fun.
When
Jeff and I have kids I'm not going to be one of those mothers
who hang around the park desperate to talk to someone who
isn't lying in their own feces. I'm going to be much different.
I'll take the baby to art galleries, museums and foreign films.
January
27
I
got the invitation to my mother's wedding. It doesn't seem
fair, this is her second wedding and I haven't even been married
once.
She
phoned me to ask if I received it, what did I think of it,
blah, blah, blah did I think she made a good decision sticking
with the ivory or should she have gone for the blue? Blah,
blah BLAH.
I
told her it didn't really matter at her age what colour the
invitations were and she got all huffy. I tried to calm things
down by offering to help hoping she'd say no, but because
she is a taker, she took me up on it and asked me to help
her put together the bombonierres.
I asked her what the hell they were and she told me they were
little gifts to give to the guests. I asked if they were getting
dinner why we had to spoil them and she said it's something
they would like to do that and it really wasn't any of my
business anyway.
Oh,
yeah sure. It's not coming out of her inheritance so I guess
she can afford to spend like a drunken sailor. Some people
are so selfish.
January
29
I
haven't heard from Jeff for TWO DAYS. I've called his cell
phone but he hasn't had it turned on. This really stinks.
We're a couple but I only see him a few days a week. I don't
know how much more of this I can take.
I
finally got up the nerve to call his home. I found out if
you put *67 before you dial, it blocks out your number. I'm
not sure if they have caller I.D. but I'm not taking any chances.
His
wife Kathy answered on the second ring. She sounded like she'd
been laughing when she picked up the phone. I panicked and
hung up.
What
was she laughing at? Was Jeff there? If so, what were they
laughing at? Maybe there was a funny show on TV, or maybe
she was thinking of of a joke. Maybe she had some friends
over and they'd had some wine. Maybe they were telling her
to move on with her life and let Jeff go and she realized
how stupid she was being and started to laugh. Jeff said she'd
fall apart if he left her - if that's true what is she doing
laughing in the middle of the evening like she hasn't a care
in the world?
Her
voice is kind of low, kind of thick. I guess someone in prison
might think it was sexy. I wonder what she looks like? Not
that I care, I'm just curious.
January
30
Jeff
came over for dinner last night and we had a really nice time.
He apologized for not calling. He said work has been crazy
and he has not had a spare moment.
After
dinner I started asking questions about his wife. He got really
defensive and said he didn't want to talk about her. I told
him he owed it to me as she was standing between us. If anyone
was entitled to know about her it was me. He would only tell
me that she was tall, had brown hair and worked at the Pacific
Trust. That was it.
I
asked him when he was going to leave her and he said he had
to wait until he filed his taxes. I know it's not a very long
period of time to wait for a lifetime of happiness but still!
January
31
Jeff
called me from work tonight to tell me he was thinking about
me. I thought that was so sweet!
Knowing
he wasn't home, I couldn't help myself and called his house.
Kathy answered on the fifth ring. I was relieved that she
didn't sound as happy as the other night. She sounded kind
of neutral. Her "Hello" didn't go up at the end
it went kind of flat.
I
wonder what she does when he works late? Does she just watch
TV and mope or does she busy herself with projects? Maybe
she does needlepoint. Tonight she sounded like the type who
would enjoy needlepoint. Last time she sounded like she might
be a hoochhead but this time she sounds like she might do
needlepoint. She probably wears those little granny glass
things and stitches away with the TV on in the background.
Stitching and waiting. Waiting and stitching.
1:00
a.m. I feel weird. I can't stop thinking about her. Hearing
her voice has made me feel kind of queasy. I wasn't having
a problem with things before because she didn't seem real.
But now...
Oh,
gosh. What have I gotten into?
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