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Jenna's
Diary
August
30
I
have found the LORD!!! This is way too cool. I found the pamphlet the pick
up truck lady gave me and I finally realized that I have been living a terrible,
terrible life--I thought it was just me but it seems it was the devil.
I
am BORN AGAIN. That means for sure I can come out of my room. I feel like
a whole new person. I watched myself in the mirror and I've got a new smile
that shows my inner peace as long as I don't hold it too long.
August
31
I
can hardly wait till this stupid holiday is over and I can get away from these
sinners.
I'm not announcing anything about my religious awakening because I have to
find out what religion I am first, and I'll also have finish the pamphlet--but
I got the gist of it.
I
can look Michael right in the eye without any shame--well just a little bit
of shame. But I don't have the vendetta I had before. Who cares if he doesn't
find me attractive--the Lord does. (Also Michael is now completely lousy--I
was going to give him some Nix to get rid of the lice but then he'll know
I was infested.)
I
spent the day in quiet contemplation. I fully appreciated all God's gifts,
the water, the trees the sky and how much this cottage is actually worth.
September
1
I
baptized myself in the lake this morning. It was exactly like a swim except
with more talking.
Aimee
and Mum still think I've got some sort of fever and keep asking how me I feel.
I just kept smiling beatifically at them as they don't know the joy, but they
kept asking me until it got on my nerves so much I screamed that it was inner
peace and stormed into the house.
September
2
It
was a stupid idea to come up here with all of them. I see it now. I don't
know what I was thinking.
Sure
it was the only way I could get up here and sure Mom and Aimee seem to be
almost cured of Precious Moments, but
other than finding the Lord this has been a balls of a trip.
Thank God we're leaving tomorrow.
September
3
If
I didn't have my faith I would never have been able to handle that goddamn
ride home.
It
was like Mom and Aimee short circuited or something, having to face going
back to the temptation of the Precious Moments cult and all the trouble they're
in.
I know about temptation because I'm a former sinner, but it was driving me
bat shit.
They
started their weeping and baby talk crap and Meathead Michael was encouraging
them to talk between scratches. I swear I could see the lice jumping on his
head. That's the only thing that made me feel better.
September
4
It is so good to be home!!! I just took it easy. Mom went off
to her (MY) room to have a nap and a blubber.
I made myself some lunch, unpacked and then sat on the couch
to give thanks and watch TV.
September
5
I've
made a list of priorities:
Straighten
out my mother's financial troubles and then maybe ship her off to a home.
Devote
my life to the Word.
Find out what exactly it is I'm supposed to be doing at work and apply myself,
because idle hands are the devil's something or other.
I'm
not going to waste time on petty squabbles and I'm going to love my fellow
man.
I'm
going to find a stable relationship. I think this time I'll go for a guy who
likes me back.
I'm
going to phone all the friends I've wronged and apologize.
I'm
going to join a church.
I'm
going to dye my hair.
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