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Jenna's
Diary appears every Friday
March
1st
What
a slap in the face. When I think of all the years I've put
up with her behaviour, listened to her dumb stupid boring
problems, was always there for her and this is what I get?
I am her own flesh and blood, fruit of her loins and she doesn't
want me to be in her stupid geriatric bridal party.
She
could tell I was upset. Maybe it was the tremble in my voice,
maybe it was because I told her I hated her and hung up -
whatever - something told her I was upset. She tried to smooth
things over by saying, "Jenna, you specifically said
you didn't want anything to do with the wedding. You said
you weren't interested and that I wasn't to "bore"
you with details. You said..."
It's
about high time people realized what I mean and what I say
are two totally different things.
It's
not fair. For the first time ever I actually stood a chance
of outshining the bride.
It's
not fair.
March
2nd
Jeff
went into a big production number saying he was nervous about
the wedding and that he'd met my parents, wasn't that enough
for now? (Ugh, Mr. Van Heusan is not my parent. He is my mother's
toy boy I wish he'd get that through his head.)
Because
I am injured to my very soul I couldn't be bothered to argue.
I said "Whatever you want. I know that what I think,
want or feel means nothing to those who claim to love me.
It is a matter of no importance to whether you wish to attend
or not. I don't think I'm even going to attend."
Then I went to lie down.
He
shouted his apologies through the door and said he just had
cold feet, of course he wanted to go to the wedding.
Whatever.
March
3rd
As
soon as I arrived at work I told my mother that I wasn't going.
I nobly said, "If you are so ashamed of me I don't want
to do anything to cast a pall on your big day. You'll enjoy
it more if I'm not there to spoil it for you."
I
also told her I'd be looking for a new job as I thought it
best we didn't see each other anymore.
She
said "Honey I never, ever wanted to hurt you. I had no
idea what this meant to you, please forgive me."
But
I held up my hand and said "We won't speak of this again."
I
am mortally wounded.
March
4th
My
mother said that it was completely ridiculous that I work
all by myself in the office while she and Mr. Van Heusan were
on their honeymoon. She said she was going to close the office
so I could have a little holiday, with pay of course.
I
didn't even look up from my crossword.
I cannot be bought.
March
5th
Jeff
has done a complete turnaround. He figures if I don't attend
the wedding everyone will think he had something to do with
it. Why is he making this into something about him when it
is all about me?
Some
people are so self-absorbed.
March
6th
My
mother was waiting for me as I arrived at work she said, "Jenna
this has gone on long enough. I have to talk to you."
As
I've been doing all week, ignored her took out a can of cake
frosting and a bottle of Pepsi and ate it just to punish her.
She
pretended she didn't notice my breakfast and persisted.
"Jenna,
you've got to listen to me. We didn't plan to leave you out
of the wedding, in fact you feature quite prominently! Remember
we asked you to write something for us? Well we figured an
artist of your caliber shouldn't be saddled with a bunch of
tedious tasks. We want you to shine at the reception when
you read one of your thingys."
That
certainly put a different light on things. I asked her why
she didn't tell me this before and she said that I didn't
give her a chance.
I'm
a pretty big person and I have to admit that it was true,
I hadn't given her a chance to explain. Still, I wasn't going
to be mollified so easily. I asked her just how prominently
I was going to feature and she told me that not only would
I be reading some of my work I'd also be serving as the mistress
of ceremonies. She told me that I'd be running the whole show.
Well.
That is certainly something I'd be good at. Simon always said
that I would make a terrific performer and I'm forced to agree
with him.
I
asked her if I still got the week off. She said yes, I made
a show of thinking it over and I told her that I would do
it.
Whoo
hooo! This is really exciting. I don't want to show my mother
how excited I actually am because then she won't feel guilty
but this is going to be fun!
This
is going to be the best wedding ever! (Thanks to me!)
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